These past few days have single handedly been some of the hardest of my life. I’ve experienced heartbreak like never before and to be quite honest I’ve thought in my head multiple times “God I dont know how I am ever going to get through this.” I’m feeling broken, defeated, and unmotivated but I find peace in knowing that while everything in our lives may not remain constant, God always does.
My parents have been through a lot in the span of their lives, but over the years they learned that through it all if you keep your eyes on God anything can be made new again. This is the advice they have given to me in the past few days and I could not be more thankful for it. They have been an example to me that good can come from the pain and the hurt.
At first, I was angry at God. I was angry at him that He would let me feel this much pain when I thought I had it all figured out. I never imagined my whole world would be turned upside down this week as it was. I look at my parents and not only see my support system but I see an example of how Gods plans are always greater than our own, and that if things are meant to be they will be. It may take time, but if you keep your eyes and heart focused on God he will show you the way.
As for me right now, my heart is aching but I know that this pain is not for nothing. God has plans and this is is way of telling me that I need to grow and learn more about myself in order to reveal his true purpose for me. I know this won’t be easy, but through it all I will keep my eyes on Him.
“It Is Well” by Bethel Music has always been one of my favorite worship songs because the lyrics are so beautiful. “Through it all, through it all, my eyes are on you”. My friends I ask for prayer as I go through this hard time, as I will be praying for those of you who may be experiencing the same. It will all be well, we just have to keep our eyes on Him through it all.