Body Confidence

Health & Fitness

With the end of May approaching, I have been thinking a lot about things I have done to better my mental health this month. May is mental health awareness month, and while I think we should bring awareness to it everyday, I love that there is a month dedicated to it. One of my goals for this year has been to be more confident in my skin. With May being the start of summer, I decided to really focus on how I was treating my mind and my body, because I was so tired of spending countless summers hating the way I looked. I want to share some things that have helped me in the past couple months, and while I am still not where I want to be in my “body confidence” journey, I am making huge progress and I am so happy.

The first thing I learned, was that you have to learn to love your body at the state it is in now. This was hard for me, because I am always looking for things I want to change about myself. It is good to have goals for yourself and your body as far as health goes, but if you learn to love it how it is first, you can grow the love even more from that. Remember, you were made so beautiful and so unique! 

Second, I had to decide what my goals were. It is okay to want to change our bodies, but make sure you are doing it for you and what is going to make you feel the best and the happiest! For me, my goals were to gain muscle, strength, and confidence. My boyfriend is extremely talented in the field of fitness and nutrition (its what his college degree is in) and was happy to help. He helped me with meal planning and wrote me up a fitness program that was specifically tailored to my goals. (side note: If you are interested in starting a healthy lifestyle and need help obtaining your goals he is the best and would love to help! Feel free to comment for more info). 

Third, you have to stop comparing yourself to others! (something I am still definitely learning) These days with social media, it is so easy to compare ourselves to how others look. While I have gotten better at it, I still find myself guilty of it every now and then. Instead of comparing, we need to focus on our own goals and the progress we are making in our own lives and trust me, it makes your mindset so much better.

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Lastly, remember that slow progress is still progress! If you are starting a journey to a more healthy lifestyle and body confidence, patience is a huge part of that journey. I used to get so aggravated when I didn’t see progress or results right away. However, I learned that you will see it overtime and the feeling of seeing your hard work pay off is so amazing!

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I have struggled a lot with body confidence over the years, but I am slowly but surely learning to love my body and be confident in the skin I am in day by day. Never forget how beautiful and unique each and everyone of you truly are. If there’s something about your body you are unhappy with, its okay to make goals to change it, but be kind to yourself in the process.

-Taylor

Trust His Timing

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Something that I have slowly begun to learn is that God’s timing is always perfect. Now, this is definitely not an easy concept to grasp, especially when we are going through rough times in life. Many events that have occurred in my life I have sat and wondered why they had to happen in the first place. Certain events broke me, crushed my spirits, and left me without hope. A few months ago I was in one of the worst head spaces I have ever been in. I truly felt defeated. With the help of my family, I got back on my feet and decided to put my full trust in God and His timing.

“Don’t mistake God’s patience for His absence. His timing is perfect and His presence is constant. He is always with you.” -Deuteronomy 3:16 

In the following months I learned to love myself for who God made me to be and felt a sense of worth that I never had before. For the first time in a long time I felt like myself again (but an even better version). I felt like God was preparing me for something great, and sure enough He was. A little over a month ago God brought my boyfriend Clay into my life. So many things had fallen apart in both of our lives but all of it led to us being able to come together. We both not only had gotten stronger from past circumstances, but we had also learned to love ourselves and therefore we were able to give the best version of ourselves to another person.

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While I didn’t understand His timing at first, as soon as I met Clay I knew everything I had gone through before was worth it. There is not a day that goes by that he does not remind me how worthy I am. He accepted me for all that I am, broken pieces included and I am so thankful for him. I am beyond glad I chose to be patient with God’s timing and how He was working in my life because if I hadn’t I may have never received one of my biggest blessings.

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I ask that in the coming weeks, whatever life throws at you be patient. Trust in Gods timing, because even if it may not seem like it, His timing will always be better than ours. The blessings that He has in store are well worth the wait. Sometimes we have to go through bad things in life to appreciate the good even more.

-Taylor Johns

 

Accepting Change

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I want to start off by saying I am so sorry that it has been such a long time since I last posted, but I’m happy to be back. The past month of my life has been one full of changes and I’m not going to lie, at first I was terrified. I have always been someone who is scared of change. Once I get comfortable and in a routine I don’t want anything to mess it up. I had to quickly realize that change has to happen in order for you to grow to be exactly who God intended for you to be.

“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord. Whose confidence is in Him.” -Jeremiah 17:7

You see, when things don’t work out in our lives it’s not because God is trying to punish us. He instead is in the process of opening new doors in our lives and because of that He has to close others that aren’t helping us grow. I didn’t want to accept the change in my life and for a few days I was angry at God. I thought I had it all together and had my life figured out, but He showed me that His plans are greater. Over the past few weeks I have learned to accept the changes that have taken place in my life, and I could not be happier. Once I started to see it as a blessing rather than a heart ache my whole perspective changed.

(My sweet nana & I, something that has been so helpful through this process of change is spending time with family, in a season of change surround yourself with people who will help you through it.)

I am learning so much about myself in this process. I have learned that for years I broke my own heart by accepting love that was not what I deserved. I became a version of myself that I never wanted to be, but now I am truly glowing. God has shown me my worth and what I deserve and I believe that I would not have realized either one of those things without change. I would have been stuck in the same downward spiral for the rest of my life.

I know change isn’t easy to accept, but if you don’t like the way life is going right now it is something that has to happen! Pray that God will show you the path for your life and allow Him to help change the negative parts of your life that are hindering you from your true purpose. I was worried that the person I became after this change was not going to be someone I liked, but turns out it’s someone I love. Not only have I realized the love I should have for myself, but others around me have noticed the positive effect change has had on me as well. It is so refreshing to hear people say that I look truly happy and full of life, because that is something I haven’t heard in the longest time.

Change may not always be what we want at first, but God will always show you that it is for the better and all a part of His plan. So accept it, trust it, and let Him guide you. Say this prayer with me, “Lord, I thank you for how you are working in my life and the changes you are bringing. While I may not understand now, I know I will eventually and that these changes will shape me into the person you know I can be. Thank you for being the light that guides me down these new and unfamiliar paths, I will follow you and trust you. Amen.”

-Taylor Johns

Through It All

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These past few days have single handedly been some of the hardest of my life. I’ve experienced heartbreak like never before and to be quite honest I’ve thought in my head multiple times “God I dont know how I am ever going to get through this.” I’m feeling broken, defeated, and unmotivated but I find peace in knowing that while everything in our lives may not remain constant, God always does.

My parents have been through a lot in the span of their lives, but over the years they learned that through it all if you keep your eyes on God anything can be made new again. This is the advice they have given to me in the past few days and I could not be more thankful for it. They have been an example to me that good can come from the pain and the hurt.

At first, I was angry at God. I was angry at him that He would let me feel this much pain when I thought I had it all figured out. I never imagined my whole world would be turned upside down this week as it was. I look at my parents and not only see my support system but I see an example of how Gods plans are always greater than our own, and that if things are meant to be they will be. It may take time, but if you keep your eyes and heart focused on God he will show you the way.

As for me right now, my heart is aching but I know that this pain is not for nothing. God has plans and this is is way of telling me that I need to grow and learn more about myself in order to reveal his true purpose for me. I know this won’t be easy, but through it all I will keep my eyes on Him.

“It Is Well” by Bethel Music has always been one of my favorite worship songs because the lyrics are so beautiful. “Through it all, through it all, my eyes are on you”. My friends I ask for prayer as I go through this hard time, as I will be praying for those of you who may be experiencing the same. It will all be well, we just have to keep our eyes on Him through it all.

-Taylor Johns

The Storms of Life

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Storms are something that have always amazed me. I have always wondered how they can cause so much destruction, but also be so intriguing and beautiful. When it comes to our everyday life we can experience a lot of storms, but they may not always appear to be so beautiful. I often find my self questioning if these storms are even necessary. Nevertheless, God always answers my question with “of course”.

Whatever storm has or is tearing through your life is doing so for a purpose. Wether your storm be a loss, financial trouble, physical health, mental health etc. I promise that this storm has a purpose to serve, and once it passes that purpose will be revealed. It’s easy to see the ugly in the storm. The dark gloomy clouds, the debris, the damage…but what’s not so easy to see is how beautiful the sky looks when the lightening illuminates it, or the glisten of the ground after the rain has fallen on it. My friend, just as the lightening illuminates the sky, the lightening of your storm illuminates how strong and beautiful you are.

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You may feel weak, tired, and ready to give up but remember…storms always pass. These storms in your life are a chance for you to grow. The growing process may be hard and it can be devastating but you will come out so much stronger in the end. Take each day one step at a time. It’s okay to feel scared and sad and so much more. Feel those things and feel them deeply. Share your heart with God, share your concerns and fears with God. Ask Him to show you the purpose behind your storm and be patient in His reply.

If you are experiencing a storm in your life right now, it may be hard to see through the dark clouds, but good things are coming. This is a promise that he made in the Bible:

“God promises to make something good out of the storms that bring devastation to your life.”-Romans 8:28

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We also have to remember that everyone is going through storms in life the timing may just not be the same as ours. I encourage you to be the sunshine in someone else’s storm. If you have a friend or family member or even a complete stranger that is going through a hard time build them up and pray for them. Shine some light into their darkness and remind them that their storm will pass.

-Taylor Johns

Making A Masterpiece

Devotionals

Happy July everyone! I just got back from a great vacation with my family, and my time away allowed me to really take in all the wonderful things God has created. It is easy to look at the ocean and the glistening sand and think “wow, how beautiful”, but it is not so easy to look at ourselves in the mirror and have that same thought. When we look at ourselves most of the time we don’t see a masterpiece. We don’t think of someones hands carefully placing every detail and planning out even more details to come. I want to make a huge effort to not only take in the beauty of God’s masterpieces around me, but to realize that I am also one of his many masterpieces as well.

The thing about a masterpiece is…it takes time. God created us and who we are before we came into this world, but that doesn’t mean he was finished then and there. Each day he is still crafting and molding us into something magnificent. He can see that the end result will be a masterpiece, but we may not always see that. In fact, we may feel more like a disaster than a masterpiece and that’s okay! Life can get hard, the devil will try to win over your mind when you are at your lowest, but you have to hang on to the truth that YOU are a masterpiece in the making.

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“You are God’s masterpiece”-Ephesians 2:10

I like to think about it this way…When we were born God had crafted a beautiful blank and fresh canvas. Throughout our lives as we grow God takes his paintbrush and adds a little more to that canvas day by day. Somedays the details are so fine and so small that we may not even notice, and other days the colors are so bright and loud that we radiate them with every action. We may not always notice the work that God is doing in our lives, but trust me he is a painter hard at work on each one of us every single day.

To get to where they are, masterpieces endure a lot of hard work, testing trials, and dedication. In order for us to become the masterpiece that God is so carefully creating we must understand that in order to do so we have to work hard, and follow him even through the darkest of times. Life and the devil is going to constantly throw things at you that may put smudges or cracks in your canvas, but it doesn’t have to break it. Let those cracks and smudges be signs of strength in the making of who you are. Trust that God is creating something amazing, because I promise you that He is. Remember that masterpieces aren’t created in a day, or even months, it can be a long process but the end result will be worth the wait.

-Taylor Johns

Joy Comes In The Morning

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The past few weeks I have been feeling a little under the weather both physically and mentally. I have been extremely unmotivated and have wanted to do nothing but sleep. These spells in my life come and go, but this one has been one of the hardest ones to kick for some reason. At the end of last week I knew I needed something to get me out of the rut I was in. My sister and I planned a sunrise photoshoot, and even though the last thing I felt like doing was getting up at 5 and getting ready for pictures, I did it…and I am so glad that I did.

If you have never seen the sunrise, I can’t even begin to explain the true beauty of it and the calmness that it brings over your life. As I watched the sun rise and saw it’s rays light up the world, I sat in awe at the true beauty of God’s creations. It was truly breathtaking. It was the most beautiful fresh start to the day. As I began thinking, I realized that no matter what happened the day or night before the sun still rises in the morning. It rises and shines it light on everything regardless of if it was the most beautiful day previous, or if it was a dark and grey stormy night.

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I began to think about my life and how the sunrise applies to it. Some days I am filled with so much joy and light, and other days that light tends to get dimmed by past or present storms that swirl through my head. I have begun to realize that not everyday is going to be sunshine and rainbows but that’s okay. God allows the sun to rise every day giving us a brand new fresh start.

“Weeping may last through the night, but joy comes in the morning.”-Psalm 30:5

On the sunny days, take time to soak it all in. Feel the warmth on your skin and take in the beauty of the world around you. On the rainy days, don’t let the clouds dim your light, shine so bright that your rays come through even the darkest of clouds. Just as the verse says, joy comes in the morning, so don’t focus to much on what may have happened yesterday.

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This is something I plan to practice more and more everyday. I forget how blessed that I truly am and how thankful I should be for each day that God gives me here on this Earth. So I encourage you to practice this as well. Wake up, soak up the sunshine and know that it’s a fresh start. Let your light shine for Jesus and know that no matter what, joy comes in the morning.

-Taylor Johns

Why Self Care Days Are Essential

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If you have never taken a self care day…girl…it is time to start! Life can get so busy sometimes that we forget to take care of our bodies. I used to feel like I had to be doing something productive every single minute of the day, but I have lately realized that it is okay to take a day to destress. These days help not only our bodies to recover, but our minds as well and that is so important. We need to make sure that we have a healthy mindset and aren’t constantly overloading it.

A healthy mind is key to living a productive life. When our mindset is down, so is our bodies. It makes you feel sluggish and all you may feel like doing is laying in the bed. This is how I would feel all the time until I started implementing a self care day into my weekly routine. This is just a day or night where you can take some time for yourself and relax.

I usually like to have a self care day/night at the end of the week on Friday or Saturday, just depending on what I have going on. What you include in your self care routine can differ just depending on what helps you relax. These are just a few things that help me:

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The first thing I like to do is take a warm bath, add a bath bomb, and listen to some relaxing music (Billie Eilish on repeat). Bath bombs not only smell amazing, but they help your skin feel amazing to.

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After my bath I throw on some comfy pjs and a face mask. One of my favorites is the L’Oreal Pure Clay Clear & Comfort Face Mask. This helps comfort stressed skin while also cleansing it. Leave this on for about 10 minutes and you’re good to go!

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Lighting a candle and reading a good book are some of my favorite ways to keep my mind from racing. I love poetry books. They are so calming, the one I am currently reading is “The Sun and Her Flowers” by Rupi Kaur

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Oh, and if you have never cuddled with puppies to destress 10/10 recommend it…

-Taylor Johns

No Rain, No Flowers

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I have always loved the saying “No rain, no flowers”. When the rain comes we often times tend to despise it wishing it away, without realizing the true beauty it can bring. Without rain, the flowers would not bloom. While the rain pours down, it turns the sky dark and gloomy, making everything around grey. Nasty puddles fill the roads and it seems as if it will never go away, but it does. The rain always passes.

This past week I shared my story of overcoming an eating disorder on my youtube channel. Never in a million years did I think it would be something I would publicly share. For years I was so embarrassed of it and I let it cause me so much pain. It was a very rainy season in my life, and I felt as if it would never go away. My head was like a dark cloud constantly pouring out negative thoughts and feelings about myself. These thoughts told me “you aren’t skinny enough” “you are pretty enough” “you’ll never be enough”.

For ten years I have let these same thoughts run ramped in my mind. These thoughts have robbed me of so much joy in my life. Instead of my story being something that I was ashamed about, I decided I wanted it to be something that I could use to help others. I want to bring more awareness to eating disorders and mental health because they are things that so many people are struggling with everyday. Just as I did, people learn to hide it well. You never know what someone may be going through.

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“I will send down showers in season there will be showers of blessings.” – Ezekiel 34:26

God allowed me to see the beauty and the blessings that the rain brings. When the rain is pouring, you will feel like it will never end, but when it passes you will see things in a whole new light. Don’t get me wrong, I still have days where those thoughts try to ruin my mood, but I am doing my best to learn how to control them. I quit being ashamed, finally got the help I needed, and now I am ready to let my light shine.

It was so hard for me to understand why I was going through the things that I was, and I am sure many of you have felt the same way. I found a quote on Pinterest a couple weeks ago that explains it perfectly:

“May the flowers remind us why the rain was so necessary.”- Xan Oku

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If you are going through a rainy season of life, just know that God has a reason for it all. This rain will allow you to grow and bloom in ways that you never have before. He knows you are strong, and He will help guide you through it. God is the light peaking behind that dark grey cloud. This storm will pass, and from it will come beauty and blessings.

-Taylor Johns

Learning To Be Myself

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Learning to be myself has been one of the hardest things…

I am shy, and I always have been. For years I was made to feel as if this is one of the worst characteristics to have. I have always hated this about myself up until recently. I finally realized that God made me this way for a reason. Because I am shy, there is a lot of things that come as a challenge to me, so that means I have to work hard to accomplish these tasks. God made me this way, not so I would hate it, but because He knew I could handle what came with it and that it would only make me stronger.

“Be Strong, Be Brave, Be Fearless. You are never alone.” -Joshua 1:9

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Over the past couple years I have done several things that are really out of my comfort zone. I started a youtube channel, began doing devotional videos on Facebook, and started this blog. It shocked so many people, because it was definitely something that no one could see me doing, but that didn’t mean I couldn’t do it. At first, (and still am sometimes) I was so scared of what others may think about me. I thought “everyone is going to think I am so weird”. I knew it was out of the ordinary, especially in my town but I gave it a shot anyways, and I am so thankful that I did.

Through my videos and this blog I have been able to show the world who I am, and truly find my passions. Yes I am shy, but I love sharing my passions with others and creating new content every week makes me so happy. Slowly, but surely I am learning to do the things that make me happy and to be who I am, regardless of what others think. I have been able to show my more outgoing and creative side through these platforms, and I am so grateful for that. I am positive that not everyone who watches my videos or reads my blog likes it, but that’s okay because I love it. Hearing how it impacts the lives of others absolutely makes my day and means the world to me.

A few years ago if you would have told me that I would have been doing the things I am today, I would have said you were crazy. I didn’t believe in myself, and I let my shyness hold me back from a lot of things. Today, I take that shyness as a challenge and allow it only to make me stronger. I know that God made me who I am for a reason and a purpose, and that goes for everyone! He has allowed me to see a glimpse of what that purpose is, and through that I have been able to find myself.

Everyday I am still working on just truly being me. I don’t want to regret not doing something just because someone else told me it was “weird” or that I just wasn’t the type of person that could succeed at it. I want to live my life and experience true joy in doing the things that I love, and inspiring others to do the same. I am growing to love the shy, awkward girl that I am and fully embracing that for what it is. It is okay to be different and out of the ordinary, God made us all different for a reason.

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No matter the situation, always stay true to yourself. God made you wonderful, and beautiful and created you for great things. There is only one you in this world, so show the world who that person is! Live your life doing things that make you happy, find what you are passionate about, and use your light to guide others to do the same. God will be will you every step of the way. Take chances, even if it may seem “out of character” for you. Go after your dreams, you never know where they make take you. Learn to be yourself and learn to love yourself, because God loves you just as you are. 

-Taylor Johns